I must be strong

May 24 – Feeling destroyed

My posts are depressing I know, but that’s the state I’m in. I’m completely destroyed. I don’t know what to do, I have lost all motivation. After almost 15 years of marriage, two kids and all of a sudden it’s all gone. That’s harsh. I am not sure about the motivation under this, but…

May 24, 2022
May 23 – I’m a mess

It’s been 4 days since our terrible talk and I’m a mess. I have been sleep deprived and this whole situation is taking a big toll on me mentally and physically. My head is spinning and I’m thinking about a lot of things. It’s really hard. Not being able to sleep is hard physically as…

May 23, 2022
May 21st – I’m a zombie

I’m literally a zombie. Haven’t slept all night since we had our talk. Never have I been in such a bad shape. I am drained mentally, can’t stop thinking about what has happened and because of that I can’t sleep. This in turns affects me physically and we’ll turns me into a zombie. Quite the…

May 21, 2022
May 20 – I need help

Yes I have to say I really need help. I have called a social help line because I am in such distress it’s incredible. My whole world is completely destroyed. I have nothing to hang onto anymore. Well that’s not entirely true as I still have my kids and they mean the world to me.…

May 20, 2022
May 19th – The day my world fell apart

On this very afternoon, my whole world fell apart. I had a talk with my wife regarding trust issues. I suspected a third party person to be involved in her life. I confronted her and without getting a clear answer, our relationship as a couple ended abruptly that night. As much as I want to…

May 19, 2022