So it’s been a little while since we’ve discussed the details of our divorce.

I’m trying my best to work things out peacefully, for everyone’s benefit. Even thought disclosing the truth would be appealing, but I won’t gain much from that.

After sending the kids to sleepover at the grandparent’s place, I went back home to discuss the divorce details with my ‘wife’.

As we’re discussing, I realized how disconnected she is from reality. It’s sad, all she thinks about is herself and couldn’t careless about our ‘couple’ or even less about me.  She has a literally no remorse whatsoever.

One example is that she’s putting the blame of our divorce onto how different we are. How we’re from different world and how we don’t think alike at all. This is true thought, but for me, the reason why I want to divorce is because she cheated and is now with another man. That is the reason. But for her, that’s kind of the result and the adultery seems kind of irrelevant. She’s putting the blame on both of us for the failed relationship. There’s some truth to it, but she broke one of the 10 commandments, she cheated and that’s the reason for the divorce.

Another example is that when I told her about how we were going to split the house, I told her according to the law and the marriage contract. She then replied with: ‘oh, you’re going to use that?’ I told her but of course!

Anyhow, she cried, because her future is uncertain. I cried, because of the failed relationship, because of this unnecessary pain we’ll all have to through. Especially for the kids. They don’t deserve this. Poor kids. I can’t help but feel so much remorse on how much we’re going to hurt them. They so didn’t deserve this.

It hurts.