It’s been 4 days since our terrible talk and I’m a mess.

I have been sleep deprived and this whole situation is taking a big toll on me mentally and physically. My head is spinning and I’m thinking about a lot of things. It’s really hard.

Not being able to sleep is hard physically as I am totally drained. I have no energy and motivation to do anything. I’ve never been in such a terrible state. Besides that I have no appetite whatsoever, so I’m really not eating well. Let alone eating at all.

I’ve never skipped meals before, but I’ve done it too many times in the last couple of days.

I don’t know where all this is going to go but for now let’s say that it’s not going well.

I have reached out to a good friend of mine who unfortunately has been through a divorce in the last few years as well. His situation is comparable as he has kids as well.

It helps to talk about it and thanks to him I’ve got back to my sense temporarily. He’s giving me hope that things after a separation may still be good. He’s been through a lot too, but seeing how well he’s come back is really encouraging. I’m so happy for him as well. We’ll deserved.