I am still a mess. I can’t really continue like this. Hence I have been looking around at different resources to help me get back on track.

I am lucky enough to have such a program at work that will cover a big portion of the expenses for a psychologist. Besides this, as I have recently changed my insurance plan because of my wife’s new job, I have now psychology coverage on top of that. I guess I’ll be pretty well covered for a little while. But I really do need that help.

In a rare moment of self consciousness these days, I have made the vow to change both mentally and physically.

Mentally I need help. I need help to recover from this but also change for the better who I am. I am not a bad person, but let’s just say for now that I am not the best at socializing with others. I am pretty mediocre at that.

Physically, I am alright, but despite the fact that looks is not the most important, it sure still does help in boosting your confidence. So here I am working out almost everyday for a little 20 minutes. Not much but baby steps is better than nothing.

We’ll see how thing goes, but I really hope I can maintain all this. For now I am still taking melatonine supplements to help sleeping but I dont think it has much effect in my situation.

Anyways, time to change. Change is now. Let’s keep it up.