Today we had a BBQ with the family.

As the evening went on, one of my aunt came and sat down with me.

She’s very close with my wife. I know my wife and her often talk about everything and anything as they get along very well.

I guess my depression is showing as she asked me how I was doing. She directly stated that she knows things are not well between me and my wife. Actually I don’t think she knows things are that bad but she knows things are not great.

As I open up to her about how things were never great together and how it’s very likely the end between us, she tells me that God can make miracles. I really do wish, and I know he can, but I don’t think that this one will work out.

If there’s no will on her part, or if there’s someone else, there’s really not much we can do. Painful. So painful but I must go on for the kids.