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July 20 – Meeting a very good friend
Today a very dear friend of mine came to visit us. I have known her since we were kids. But because she lives in Europe we rarely see each other. Besides she’s married and has kids and so do I, but that doesn’t stop us for being very happy to see each other. It’s kind…
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July 19 – 2 months
So it’s been two months that we’ve been living like roommates and I hate every single bit of it. My wife or roommate does her thing and lives her life while I am hanging around like a fool hoping that things will get better. Honestly, even if time eases tension, I can hardly see how…
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July 3rd – Freak eye accident
I know I’m not the most luckiest guy in the world. Relatively speaking. Because I know I am blessed with the greatest parents ever one could wish. I have the best family and two beautiful son that I love more than anything in the world. It’s just that sometimes when bad luck strikes you, it’s…
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June 27 – Still just friends
There’s not much change in our relationship these days. I guess we’re just down to being roommates who happened to have had 2 kids together. Pathetic. I don’t understand it, but have no choice for now. I don’t want to make the situation worse. It is painful enough as it is right now. We’re just…
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June 24 – Discussion with family
Today we had a BBQ with the family. As the evening went on, one of my aunt came and sat down with me. She’s very close with my wife. I know my wife and her often talk about everything and anything as they get along very well. I guess my depression is showing as she…
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June 19 – Father’s day
So today marks the one month day since my life fell apart. Ironically it’s also Father’s day. I guess probably my worst fathers day ever. Hopefully my last one of this kind. Since my mother in law is here, we’re driving her back to her place. It’s a 2 hour drive, so it basically became…
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June 11 – So confused
Spent the morning with the kids and my wife. Despite the whole situation, we are still keeping a somehow ‘normal’ life, in appearance. It’s kind of a show, where we look ok, but deep down it’s really not. At least I’m really not alright. For the sake of the children, I do my best to…
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June 5 – Staying together for the kids
The kids today have been invited to their friends house. So we’ve been driving them around town and left them at their friends house. It’s one of the few moments we’re alone together. Since our last discussions I am still trying to understand what’s going on and I am still trying to make things right.…
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June 2nd – Still looking for a psychologist
So it’s been two weeks now that I’m in this state. I can’t sleep or when I do I wake up every 2 hours because there’s so much going on in my mind. I have never suffered of insomnia in my life and this really does have a huge impact on me. Mentally and physically.…