I must be strong

Category: Feelings

  • July 20 – Meeting a very good friend

    Today a very dear friend of mine came to visit us. I have known her since we were kids. But because she lives in Europe we rarely see each other. Besides she’s married and has kids and so do I, but that doesn’t stop us for being very happy to see each other. It’s kind…

  • July 3rd – Freak eye accident

    I know I’m not the most luckiest guy in the world. Relatively speaking. Because I know I am blessed with the greatest parents ever one could wish. I have the best family and two beautiful son that I love more than anything in the world. It’s just that sometimes when bad luck strikes you, it’s…

  • June 28 – Cosmetic appointment

    After my impulse buy of last week, I came back to the store to get my scheduled facial. I have never taken care of my skin, let alone my face, so when the cosmetician asked me what do I apply on my face I was a bit ashamed to say just water. The cosmetician lead…

  • June 27 – Still just friends

    There’s not much change in our relationship these days. I guess we’re just down to being roommates who happened to have had 2 kids together. Pathetic. I don’t understand it, but have no choice for now. I don’t want to make the situation worse. It is painful enough as it is right now. We’re just…

  • June 26 – Meetup discussion

    I am really starting to push myself out of my comfort zone. Never have I ever been in so many different social events where I don’t know anyone. Tonight there’s a meetup at a Cafe with the topic : Love. I thought that it was a really appropriate topic regarding what I am going through…

  • June 24 – Discussion with family

    Today we had a BBQ with the family. As the evening went on, one of my aunt came and sat down with me. She’s very close with my wife. I know my wife and her often talk about everything and anything as they get along very well. I guess my depression is showing as she…

  • June 22 – Forever Flawless

    As I finish work I like to take my time when I don’t have to rush home to take care of the kids. Today I had the chance to do so. As I am walking pass by a cosmetic store, I get pulled over by a cosmetician. She starts talking to me about how great…

  • June 19 – Father’s day

    So today marks the one month day since my life fell apart. Ironically it’s also Father’s day. I guess probably my worst fathers day ever. Hopefully my last one of this kind. Since my mother in law is here, we’re driving her back to her place. It’s a 2 hour drive, so it basically became…

  • June 17 – F1 event

    This week the F1 is stopping here. I am usually busy with the kids and can’t really attend any events but ‘luckily’ my mother in law is here today. So despite the pouring rain, I’m on my way. I just wish it’ll stop by the time I get downtown where the festivities are. I meet…

  • June 12 – Staying for the kids or divorcing

    We had a big talk this morning. I must say that for now, we’re still talking like adults. But things can escalate very quickly. If I ever lose it then it’s over. I’m doing my best, but it is hard, really hard. So basically we came to the same conclusion. We don’t want to break…