So this is it. It’s been 3 months that I have confronted her about being unfaithful. I know she is.

I mean we’ve been together for 15 years, married for 14, there are some obvious signs I can pick up. The problem is, these are just signs, and unlike in the movies where people get caught, in real life it’s a whole different situation.

Plus she’s being super extra cautious now that she knows that I have doubts.

Nonetheless we discussed a bit, and since I don’t have concrete proofs and want to give myself a chance to save the relationship, I’m still trying. My heart knows it’s other thought. My brain is just trying not to give up yet.

Not that simple. Discussion was plain, don’t know what to believe anymore, but pretty sure it was not from the heart. Still staying in the lies, but I won’t last much longer. I’ve endured way too much and not sure why. I guess it’s only really because in the end I want the best for the children, and by fighting her or making an enemy out of it, is not going to help. Trying to keep it up.